I get it, you like to live like a shark. swimming straight forward, never looking back, and that's cool, man. Sharks are cool. But even if a shark could make a choice... I mean, if it had a brain that was developed enough to make a conscious decision, I don't know the science behind it... But if it could choose between swimming forward, all the time, or stop and taking a moment to reflect.
Hey, what I'm saying is, it's okay to step back, reflect, look at the past, come home, and let it remind you what it is that makes you you. Even if it's complicated.